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I still remember the first sight of you... Then only years later I started to pursue you- but failed miserably. Of course I failed, because that's how I screwed up our relationship, how I'd been a jerk, how I'd been so naive, worsening everything... Since then, we were brutally seperated by a virtual wall. Everytime I came close to you, I felt the pressure pressing against me, and perhaps you too. Like opposites of a magnet, we'd never spoke each other for months. I wished I would not wanted to even see you for that would tear my heart into smithereens...
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A year later, after much isolation between us, I'd came for you again. I thought it would be alright, I won't screw up anymore and we would be together- but again, failed pathetically. Maybe I did not screwed up. But still I felt the strong repellant from you, the way you talked to others compared to me, the way you communicated with me- so heart-breaking. The virtual barrier was still there, stood up high between us. Whenever I saw you talking with others so freely, happily BUT NOT to me, I'm deeply hurted. I'd tried to talk to you like my friends- but in vain. I felt your strong psychological rejectivity towards me, which fell my heart down the trenches... The old scar that bears the same pain was tore open again, I would not want to face you anymore...
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I'm sorry.
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